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went to practice last night and had a pretty darn good bout with Christian. He made me play the thrust only game and it really seemed to help my abilities. Mid-way through I slipped on the grass and went down on one knee in the middle of a lunge. It was sore enough that I didn't play for the rest of the evening and spent time stretching and chatting. By the end of the night, the tightness seemed to go away so I think it was the right decision rather than stress my leg out more. Tonight is going to be busy as well...as is tomorrow night. At some point I need to do that sleep thing too....

Tonight tonight....i want to fence tonight

I'm really tired right now but contented. I know the exhaustion is because I'm pushing myself too hard in too many aspects of my life and I need to slow down and relax. I also need to remember to eat.

fencing 4x a week is great but a bit intense and I definitely need to take some down time soon and just be; a walk in the woods would help this a lot. deep breathing; some sleep; being able to sit still enough to concentrate on
a book.

I came home last night and got in by 11. I stopped on the way back for food and to pick up yet another cooler - this one is smaller and keeps
the cold better. I checked email and took a shower...i was lying on my bed contemplating reading and the next thing I knew it was 3:30 am... checked the time on my tv; thought it was morning in fact; turned off my bedside light which had been on the whole time and went back to sleep until 6ish this morning. I'm taking too many cat naps and not enough deep sleep. I need to try to sleep more. sleep deprivation sucks but it's something i live with.

that being said I am still going down to cambridge tonight to fence and possibly do other things. I have more than enough energy for that. I'm just going to have to make sure i get enough sleep thursday night or going to the event on friday is going to suck.

Addendum: it appears it is raining in Cambridge....therefore no fencing. i'm upset about it because I really could use the practice. i may still go to dance practice--it's basically in the same place. Ankur said he would come this week; but I know him he'll probably bail on me last minute again. It's alright though...i may have 2 or 3 other friends I can hook up with tonight anyways who live down there. I think i'll play it by ear for the moment.