Angst over Nick's departure
Jan. 4th, 2002 07:51 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
redfishiei've been up since 4 this morning. I had to get something into my advisor and i also fell asleep early last night.
i'm upset about Nick leavng. I won't see him for a long time. He could be gone up to a year. He should be okay but it's just the lack of in-person contact that's getting to me. I should still be able to reach him by letter, but phone is much less of a possibility. Person to person much less so (impossible). No hugs, no kisses, no anything in person and physical...no looks across a room..nothing.
I hope the letters will make up for it.
It was extremely odd being in the Albany area for New Year's and watching Scott plan to move in. It hurt to see someone else moving into Nick's apartment even if it is only temporarily.
It also means i will be going out there less often. It has been wonderful, to go out and see Nick primarily but to see other friends as well. It was a bit of an escape from Amherst, truth be known. I'm going to have free time I won't know what to do with once Nick has left for activation. I think it will just make me miss him more.
It's upsetting, he will come back, and maybe I can get some good work experience in the meantime...but I can't pretend to be happy about the prospect.
i'm upset about Nick leavng. I won't see him for a long time. He could be gone up to a year. He should be okay but it's just the lack of in-person contact that's getting to me. I should still be able to reach him by letter, but phone is much less of a possibility. Person to person much less so (impossible). No hugs, no kisses, no anything in person and physical...no looks across a room..nothing.
I hope the letters will make up for it.
It was extremely odd being in the Albany area for New Year's and watching Scott plan to move in. It hurt to see someone else moving into Nick's apartment even if it is only temporarily.
It also means i will be going out there less often. It has been wonderful, to go out and see Nick primarily but to see other friends as well. It was a bit of an escape from Amherst, truth be known. I'm going to have free time I won't know what to do with once Nick has left for activation. I think it will just make me miss him more.
It's upsetting, he will come back, and maybe I can get some good work experience in the meantime...but I can't pretend to be happy about the prospect.
