stupid people tricks
May. 1st, 2003 06:36 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
redfishiewell I am an official MIT, which is all good and was pretty much a given that it was going to happen....Our regional Marshal basically said he wanted people to have at least 2 quals so that they had a minimum competency before they started "official" training, but it was pretty much something that would happen. Kay and I both said we were interested :)
During Jehan's Jack had Brokk come and talk to me (while Kay was there) and Brokk said to talk to Christian (our regional marshal) and we both said we had.
Kay only has 1 qual at this point, and Christian is one of her teachers. Yet somehow she and Brokk found each other online yesterday and she apparently asked him how quickly she could get her other forms, and he wanted to know why. When she explained she wanted to marshal, he evidently thought the 2 qual rule silly and took her on as an MIT. This is all well and good. It will actually ultimately make life better for both her and me.
The stupid part comes when Kay related this to me via email. I should probably state here and now I was NOT having a good day and rather than just telling me about this, she started off by stating I was going to kill her about something. And then would not tell me what it was/ wanted me to ask her about this. Basically she was teasing me with it. I got pretty irritated and told her to just tell me. When she did, I was happy for her, but also a bit confused and irritated because she had thought I was going to kill her over this and the teasing bit. She explained how it happened and also said something along the lines of "even Christian wants to learn from Brokk so I'd be a fool to turn him down". It made me feel like she was trying to one-up me and it really irritated me because I am not in competition with her. I know I wouldn't have felt that way if she had just told me. I was irritated because the way she told me seemed to indicate to me that she expected me to be jealous - and I'm not.
Now normally this sort of thing wouldn't phase me....but I had one of those days from heck yesterday at work and I basically wrote her back and told her I was happy for her but also that I wasn't in competition with her and I had to wonder why she had told me all of this that way. I admit that I probably read more into this than I should have, but it's not just this incident that fed into my reaction.
I haven't heard from her since. I called her last night and got her answering machine so I left a message asking her to call me to make sure we were okay as friends and to see if we needed to talk about anything. I even said when I called that I was sorry if things had been misinterpreted and that I had had a rough day.
The simple fact of the matter is I do feel like we wind up in competition sometimes and it irks me because I don't want to be. She's very competitive, and one of the ways I can tell that beyond anything else is that she brings out those instincts in me. It gets frustrating sometimes and most of the time I refuse to compete that way. I also haven't been able to go down to Sunday practices in Boston for awhile and I feel like she's been subtly discouraging me from going. There's a bunch of other stuff I could write here but it's probably not worth going into. Let me just say, that this isn't the only time this has happened, and that there are some other things along these lines...and that yesterday I hit a frustration point. Hopefully she'll call me, and this won't be a big deal. If it is hopefully we can talk about it. If it is, there's not much I can do about it right now anyways.
During Jehan's Jack had Brokk come and talk to me (while Kay was there) and Brokk said to talk to Christian (our regional marshal) and we both said we had.
Kay only has 1 qual at this point, and Christian is one of her teachers. Yet somehow she and Brokk found each other online yesterday and she apparently asked him how quickly she could get her other forms, and he wanted to know why. When she explained she wanted to marshal, he evidently thought the 2 qual rule silly and took her on as an MIT. This is all well and good. It will actually ultimately make life better for both her and me.
The stupid part comes when Kay related this to me via email. I should probably state here and now I was NOT having a good day and rather than just telling me about this, she started off by stating I was going to kill her about something. And then would not tell me what it was/ wanted me to ask her about this. Basically she was teasing me with it. I got pretty irritated and told her to just tell me. When she did, I was happy for her, but also a bit confused and irritated because she had thought I was going to kill her over this and the teasing bit. She explained how it happened and also said something along the lines of "even Christian wants to learn from Brokk so I'd be a fool to turn him down". It made me feel like she was trying to one-up me and it really irritated me because I am not in competition with her. I know I wouldn't have felt that way if she had just told me. I was irritated because the way she told me seemed to indicate to me that she expected me to be jealous - and I'm not.
Now normally this sort of thing wouldn't phase me....but I had one of those days from heck yesterday at work and I basically wrote her back and told her I was happy for her but also that I wasn't in competition with her and I had to wonder why she had told me all of this that way. I admit that I probably read more into this than I should have, but it's not just this incident that fed into my reaction.
I haven't heard from her since. I called her last night and got her answering machine so I left a message asking her to call me to make sure we were okay as friends and to see if we needed to talk about anything. I even said when I called that I was sorry if things had been misinterpreted and that I had had a rough day.
The simple fact of the matter is I do feel like we wind up in competition sometimes and it irks me because I don't want to be. She's very competitive, and one of the ways I can tell that beyond anything else is that she brings out those instincts in me. It gets frustrating sometimes and most of the time I refuse to compete that way. I also haven't been able to go down to Sunday practices in Boston for awhile and I feel like she's been subtly discouraging me from going. There's a bunch of other stuff I could write here but it's probably not worth going into. Let me just say, that this isn't the only time this has happened, and that there are some other things along these lines...and that yesterday I hit a frustration point. Hopefully she'll call me, and this won't be a big deal. If it is hopefully we can talk about it. If it is, there's not much I can do about it right now anyways.
